I Could Whatever I Wanted If I Wanted

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This song is about how awkward I am around everyone, including my own friends.


Burnt out in the basement
While you were hanging in your kitchen
And Justen was drawing on the table by himself
Anna was telling stories that everyone had thought were really boring
And I refused to say a word, I knew what Maddie meant
(when she said that she hated me)

Moira made me feel like I fit in
Michaela let me play inside her basement
Nick was telling stupid jokes out loud over the microphone
And Ella and Rachel seemed to think that he was funny
The good vibes make me feel like I'm a downer
I miss Sydney haven't seen her in a while
All the horror stories about my adolescence keep on coming back
And I'm embarrassed to admit I was ever happy and annoying and a poseur

The car drove out the driveway and I just stood there
Emily said she missed me and I felt awkward
Sam was waiting patiently as he whispered things to Cassidy
And Jenna and Aly and Eryn seemed to disappear

And you kinda did the same and I'm just waiting for the day when all the people that I love move on without me
I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss my brother, I miss the back of my best friend's car as we would drive around for hours
I miss Brianna

Everyone is out to get me
But I don't think I care enough to stop them
I've been drowning in self-pity
But I'm not strong enough to overcome it
And through the awkward conversations
All the funny things I say to stay relevant
I feel like nothing's gonna change like the fact that I'm afraid to take a step forward
And try to make my life any better


from Escape Humanity!, released August 1, 2015
This song goes to the enigma, Sam Balint. Talk to you soon my man.



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Byrdman Washington, D.C.

Four dudes makin' noise in yer basement.

Jack David - Guitar, Vocals
Nick David - Drums, Vocals
Connor Cragg - Bass
Thomas Allain - Keyboard

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