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All My Friends Are Dead to Me

by Byrdman

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Chris Fostel
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Chris Fostel An amazing album. This band is great and I love it!! Please keep doing what you're doing Favorite track: Why Can't I Be in Paris?!!.
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noah basye I love this band so god damn much. Nothing but love for this group, I really hope you guys start making music again.
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1.
Byrdlore! 01:25
LYRICS: Woah! Woah! Woah! Woah... How could I be any clearer? It's fuckin' blowin' out your speakers. Another day, another dollar... But I'm still broke. Because I spend my money on things that do not matter. You might think I'm joking, but God really fuckin' hates you. Yeah, he's probably gonna kill you. That's the truth. Because everything you do or say is blasphemy. Woah! Woah! Woah! Woah... (Generic punk finish!)
2.
LYRICS: I'm chasing cars and grinding on street curbs. Collecting scars and looking back on the stupid stunts that I've been led to lead and blaming others for my actions. I've spent the last month trying to settle down. (But fuck it.) Nothing is getting any better. Everything has gotten so much worse. I still remember teenage ignorance. Stupidity trapped inside of myself. But I am happy! I keep doing things that hurt my knees. I get my friends in shitty situations. I don't clean the messes that I make. My heart's been pounding from anticipation. I am scared to try to settle down. I wish I was in Paris. (I wish I was at home!)
3.
Pity Me 02:30
LYRICS: It's getting old. The walks I take alone are starting to hurt my feet and burn my eyes. I won't go home if you still don't want me to. I guess I'll sleep on the sidewalk as you parade around behind me. I will remember which way you went. I'll chase you down. I'll tell you I remember what you said. She said, "No one's gonna save you. No one's gonna help you." We don't have time! We have three more years until we're gone! We won't speak again. We won't talk again. We won't remember the time we spent in someone's basement, complaining the things we never do with other people. We are bitter. We are lonely. We are a knife. We are a family that doesn't give a shit about their kids. We are your eating disorder. We are your self indulgent rants. We are the words you whispered when you felt hopeless. You said, "No one's gonna save you. No one's gonna help you." (My sick dueling guitar solo) No one's gonna save you! No one's gonna help you!
4.
Havin' Fun 01:43
LYRICS: Make time to have time to make time for yourself. Don't do drugs, don't sell drugs, just keep things to yourself. There are things that are your business and there are things that are all mine. There are people that you know that I don't. There are people that will hate you, but there are people that will love you even more. Your guns and your needles, your hatred for yourself, your strengths and your weakness - your best friends are scared to death! Even though you are angry with the world that surrounds you, still have a little love left in your heart... ...And even though I can't the cliches in this song I guess I don't care!
5.
Hot Tub 04:08
LYRICS: Why can't we argue, I hate sentimental nights. I'm too tired, could you please just send me home? I'm too full of it to leave by myself, I need an excuse to drag myself out of this hole. And Hell is far too small for all six feet of me, and Heaven's too high up - I'm scared of heights. So I'll just continue doing the things that I love in Julia's hot tub every other Friday night. I live to die and so do you, there's no deeper meaning to any of this. Art is fake, hate is real, people change, no one cares about the friends that they think miss them. Why are you laughing? I'd rather die than tell you you're right about something I know I'm wrong about. I hate losing arguments, I hate looking like an idiot, I hate trying new things out. I hate making new friends and I hate losing them, I hate not knowing what I want. I hate the people I sit next to in Chemistry - just kidding, I hate everyone. Could you please turn on the T.V.? I'm getting sick of the sound of your voice. And could you please stopping whining about politics? I'm trying to keep my mind off the government... And police brutality... I wanna cannonball into your hot tub, just make you really mad at me. I want Jason to encourage me to do it, and take a picture of the look on your face. There'd be nothing you could do to stop me, I wouldn't stop for anyone. I hope the next time we hangout, everyone is there to see me jump. Why are you laughing? Why are you laughing? Why are you laughing... Laughing at me?
6.
Cheer Up! 02:50
LYRICS: You left the light on in your room when you told me I should leave. I think there's something that you don't want me to know. I didn't think it would play out like this, my patience is running thin and there's so many places I still haven't gone to. I'm fighting endless wars with my insanely shallow brain. I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm convinced that I know absolutely nothing and I'm pretty sure I'm going to Hell. (How's it going, Emily?) I love so many fucking people that will never love me back and I have friends that I owe my life to. I'm feeling down, and I'm too lazy to pick myself back and I'm pulling everyone around me down too. I guess it's nothing I can't change, but I don't want to. I guess it's something I should hate, but I feel nothing. I guess I'm being dramatic but I can't help feeling lonely and reality is slipping away. I'm just gonna get back to the surface. I wanna go into the woods and crash my bike into the creek. I wanna take off all my clothes and disappear just for the weekend. I wanna be alright again. I wanna be just fine again.
7.
LYRICS: It's all about when the lights go off in this house. So I can wake up and see your face - you're right outside my window. All of our questions infiltrate our heads. Like what we even decided to get out of our beds, but I can say it's because I missed you. We'll drive a tornado through this town. It takes fifteen shots to the head to finally bring us down. But we're not dead. We're still kickin'.
8.
LYRICS: I don't care anymore.
9.
Emily's Song 03:27
LYRICS: Well, I guess I told you we would never speak again. And all of the people that left me behind are haunting me; they're suck in my head. I have daily stomach aches and a split personality. There are still faces I can't put to name and stupid games we used to play. I still remember the summer when I lost my mind. If I do the things I said we'd do together, then maybe it would take you less time to find me. I wonder where my brand new shirt went? I wonder what I did with it? You never give me back any of the things you borrowed, I'm having trouble trying to find my things. I guess I'm too old for this. I'm beating myself up over things that I never did. I'm not mad. I am numb to everything. I spent the last six months just thinking, I feel absolutely nothing. But I... I am fine.
10.
Snow Angel 02:48
LYRICS: The sky is darker than your hair ever was right now. Snow keeps filling up our tiny, isolated town. Your footprint's still engraved in the front of my yard. Scars from the things that we did together are making all of this really hard. You're the only thing that matters. You are all I want. You think you're an angel. You are my only curse. Sleepless nights and a flashlight that kept sitting next to my bedroom window. I'd shine it out to see if you were there. There's still a pocket knife stabbed in my kitchen wall. No one seems to notice and it stands as a reminder that you were there. You're the only thing that matters. But you don't want to stay. You are an angel. You are my worst fear. Seasons come and go but that footprint never seems to fade.
11.
LYRICS: Don't leave your houses, there's monster's in the streets And your government's been torn to the ground. No more heroes left alive to cater to us, and there's no one left to help. But I've been waiting my whole life to die And now the world around us is drifting away So let's just all fall down. There's no ammunition in my belt. It's looking grim, nothing we can do to save ourselves. But we have ourselves. So let's call it quits. We have a good ride. And you've been good to me. So I'll rid myself from you. It's hard to say I love you when the world's been drained of life.
12.
Sitting Duck 02:46
LYRICS: I wish I could say I felt safe in my own home, but the fear is crippling no matter where I go. I'm scared of you. I'm scared of school. I feel like a sitting duck. I'm a victim of my own mind, which doesn't give a fuck if I'm miserable no matter what medicine I take. I've been drowning in these problems I have made. I'll never close my anxious eyes, afraid to blink. I will never leave this place. Because I'm pretty comfortable with you. I never win the wars I wage on myself, I surrender at the very first battle. I'm a sheep in wolf's clothing, I am too self-aware. I'm a moving target that can't outrun your bullet. I've been brainwashed into thinking that life is a disease, or that the worries that I have are valid. My therapist says I'm just a kid, and this'll fade, I'll probably get used to it. Because my worries are incredibly common.
13.
Sand Song 02:16
LYRICS: Trapped on this island. Our plane's in the ocean, nowhere to go. But we'll be alright. Let's build a fire. So why do you care if I stay or if I go? I can't go too far, I can't go home. It's nothing, I can tell you that much. Okay, it's something, but I can't tell you what. It's a sand trap, and we'll throw ourselves at it. It's an arrow to my temple and you're pulling back the bow. But why should I care if you take my life? I'm not too proud to die if I die next to you.
14.
Stay Classy! 03:03
LYRICS: You are trying to be different, you are trying to make friends and you're trying to find the reason. You are trying to get even with the monsters on your bed, gnawing at your feet but you're afraid to look down. And people are people, we all make mistakes, but I'm afraid that the disasters will eventually add up and one day you'll be caught in a crossfire with no place to take cover. We are hoping for the best but fully expecting the worse, and I'll never leave here. ...But I never wanna live here. I'm stuck inside an endless maze, never know where I am. I have no hole to crawl back to. I'm a turtle without a shell, a fish out of water, and I just wanna be killed. Fuck your righteous "it gets better"s, you don't who I am, do me a favor, shut your fucking mouth. Make me forget about the knives pressed to my throat. Make me forget about the murders of people I know. My parents love me more than I could probably ever imagine so I'll never leave them. I have nowhere to go. We could kill 15 birds with one stone, or feed 1 bird with 2 plates and we will choose the latter. This wealth we have can't be spread too thin, at least that's what we tell ourselves to feel better... There are answers to these questions inside our actions but we're too scared to leave our homes. I'm afraid of where I come from, but I'm even more afraid of where I go. We try so damn hard to be honest with ourselves about how we feel. I'm a liar.
15.
Friends 02:05
LYRICS: Lately I haven't made any progress. I'm trying to change to change myself. I just wish that I was someone else. This bed is a shadow, it's a fragment, a page of who I used to be. Wrap my head in the blanket, pull it tight until I can no longer breath. Decay. And it's hard for me to have a good time because it helps me realize what I've done to myself. Masochism at its finest, I've practically damned myself to Hell. There's nothing to say. There's no one blame. I have a chance now. I might have friends now. I have a chance. I have friends... I have friends. But I don't think they like me.
16.
Summer 04:04
LYRICS: I'm waking up, I'm getting angry, and it's really pretty scare how much have gotten worse. All these songs I write are stupid, but I like them anyways - I guess that's kind of how punk rock works. But you make me feel really bad about myself. I could smile if I wanted but I really don't want to. That doesn't mean I'm not okay with things. And I am sorry for the headaches I am planting in your head, I guess I'll never be able to sing. That makes me feel really bad about myself. But just because I'm wrong doesn't mean you're right. And the things I say about myself could be false. We could still have fun even if your parents hate you. We can crash our car into their yard. I am happy when I'm with you, and I am sad when I'm alone. The night's the worst part of my day. I am scared when I'm awake. I am scared when I'm asleep. I am terrified of everything around me. But you made me feel really good about myself last night. You are a beautiful exception to this living Hell. To the cruel, the cold, the awful, the unforgiving. We can still have fun even if your parents hate you. We could disappear, we could drive away. We can still have fun even if your parents hate you.

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released January 9, 2015

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Byrdman Washington, D.C.

Four dudes makin' noise in yer basement.

Jack David - Guitar, Vocals
Nick David - Drums, Vocals
Connor Cragg - Bass
Thomas Allain - Keyboard

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